This is one of those posts that I could only write on my secret blog. I wouldn't want to admit this is the way I'm feeling right now to my family. She's breaking me. Or I'm just breaking. My daughter is really hard to be around right now. She is really grouchy, stubborn, and generally unpleasant to be around. I knew the day would come when our relationship might get more difficult but I didn't expect it to be when she is only 3 years old.
She is not eating well because she never wants anything I prepare for her. She probably is hungry but she won't admit it if it means eating what I suggest. Hunger does not improve her mood. Often I make what she requests then she refuses it.
She is not getting enough sleep since she has given her nap up. A nap is what she so desperately needs right now.
She refused to go to the bathroom before she went to pre-school today. She had an accident when she was there. I really thought she would be ok since she was around her friends. I thought she would want to have an accident there. It is the first one she has had in public. I know it is not logical but it makes me feel like I failed somehow.
She is constantly stealing toys from her brother. He plays so nicely by himself and then Caitlin takes the one toy that he is mesmerized by. How many times do I have to say "Leave your brother alone? Let him play with it now and then you can have a turn." But that is better than saying "Put your brother down. You are going to hurt him." I say that a lot too.
She has also picked up a new thing. She threatens to put us in the trash can or bite our faces. I'm not sure where she has picked up this gem.
I hate that I feel this way right now. I don't know what I have done wrong to make her act this way. I feel like maybe if I dealt with her differently she wouldn't be so difficult. Right now I'm trying to concentrate on her good qualities and hoping this is just a phase and will end soon.