One definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. I guess I'm a little insane. I'm just realizing now that what I'm doing diet wise is not working. I need to figure out what is going to work for me. I did Weight Watchers when I was breastfeeding with very little success but I also have done it before that with much more success. I've done South Beach too with success. I just need to actually commit to something, prepare for it, and stick with it. I probably should have gotten serious before now considering swim suit season (for most people) is starting this weekend. If I start now maybe I will want to wear one by the end of the summer.
I have made one positive change recently. I got a gym membership. I found a local gym that really is only $10 a month even with all their fees. I figure realistically I can only go 1-2 times a week. This gym doesn't have babysitting but I don't feel comfortable leaving the kids with a sitter I don't know anyway. I joined because I wanted to start lifting weights again. I wanted to feel strong again. I've been going about a month which equates to only 5 times but I feel better about myself even if the scale hasn't moved yet. That is the most important thing anyway.