I make sure Caitlin gets a well balanced diet. Or at least I try to. I give her a vegetable, fruit, protein, and a carb at each meal. She doesn't always eat everything. She usually doesn't in fact. Overall I'd say she eats well. She mostly eats fruits and vegetables.
Now why can't I force myself to eat meals as well balanced as the ones I prepare for Caitlin. When I'm stressed or just plain busy holding Davey on my hip, I tend to eat the not-so-good-for-you-snack food. I know I should prepare cut veggies ahead of time or put Davey down and listen to him squeal like I do when I have to get Cait food. Why do I do that for her but not for me? I guess it is because I hate listening to the squealing and I'm a little lazy. It is easier to grab a handful of goldfish or jellybeans than make a salad.
My husband, David, forgets to eat sometimes. If he is watching the kids or busy doing chores, he forgets to eat. I have never forgotten to eat. I wish I could. I'm jealous of his ability to forget to eat.
As you can tell from this post or if you know me in real life, I'm struggling with my weight at the moment and eating issues. The weight has not come off as quickly as it did when I had Caitlin. I'm going to Weight Watchers. It is hard to work the program but I know I need the structure so that I can finally lose the weight. My goal is to lose it by Davey's first birthday. I have a little less than 4 months.
I want to be able to go into a swimming pool this summer and not think about how I look in a swimsuit. I don't expect to be a swimsuit model. I just want to get into the pool.
4 comments:
I still maintain, like I have for the past 11 years of knowing you, that you look GREAT. You are - and always have been - very toned and fit no matter what your weight is. Your dedication to being fit and working out has always amazed me (and motivated me). No matter what the numbers say, you look wonderful!!
I love WW! I do the online version of it. It's cheaper and I have no desire to weigh myself in front of someone and have them tell me things I already know. WW just makes you accountable for everything. It's pretty amazing what happens when you write it all down, it makes it real. In fact, before I started for real, the first day I ate "normally" and I was shocked at how much I was actually eating. Jell-O Fat Free Sugar Free pudding rules and so does Hood Simply Smart Fat Free milk.
Ughh! I can give all kinds of suggestions that make so much sense (and that you already know) but I don't even take my own suggestions (which is why I have a stash of Annie's Easy Mac at school for emergencies). But the cut veggies and premade salad for the week is ideal if you can get yourself to do it. Even frozen veggies that you can microwave, add a little salt and pepper and/or a little pseudo butter or something...2 WW gals I know swear by veggie burgers...they just microwave them...
Have I told you my sister in law lost half her body on WW?
My problem is that I convince myself that I look good, and then I force myself through the doubt and pain of getting a swimsuit, and then I wear it at the beach and am feeling happy til I see a woman with a killer body and a baby much younger than Eva. Like a certain husband's certain cousin. And then I want to cry. Because a. she obviously has time to work out and how does that happen? Oh right, because she's rich, doesn't work AND has help. Sadly, this doesn't make me feel better at all. And b. she's got a totally different gene pool than I do. Which then gets me madder since I tend to draw more from my chubby dad's side than my stick figure mom's side these days.
Pass the frickin' m and ms.
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