Sunday, January 27, 2008
Beer, free time, or both?
I miss beer. I know I can have a beer now and then and it is OK even while breastfeeding. But I don't want just one beer. I want the whole 6 pack.
It has been a long time since my body was mine. I've been pregnant or nursing since August 2004 with only a couple months off between breastfeeding and the second pregnancy. I love my kids. I would do anything for them so avoiding alcohol and artificial sweetner is not asking a lot.
It is just everyone now and then I remember how yummy a beer can be. I remember the light feeling I used to get after having a couple of beers. You know the one I'm talking about. It is the one that makes you want to hug your friends and dance on the table. I know that I'm not the only one to dance on a table.
I guess what I miss more is being able to just drink a couple of beers and not worry about taking care of children. Even if I was not breastfeeding I wouldn't have the opportunity to drink very often anyway. BK (before kids) we had Captain Sundays. Captain Sundays consisted on hanging out at someone's house, pool, or boat and drinking Captain Morgan and cokes all days. I don't think I will have a Captain Sunday again till the kids are in college. By then I'm guessing I won't want them anymore. I guess it is really the free time that I miss more than the beer.
Having kids is a trade off in some ways. Your time is never your own anymore. There are no sick days. I can't just lay on the couch and watch really bad television shows. The kids still need to be taken care of. While it can be hard at times, they bring me so much joy. I love the sound of their laughs. I love watching their faces as they figure out something new. And of course I love holding them in my arms. And I can watch as much Wonder Pets as I want when they are around.